1. Her personality
2. Her stubborness
3. She doesn’t put up with stupid people
4. She stands up for herself
5. She’s not afraid to tell people when they’re wrong
6. She’s as tough as nails
7. She’s stronger than anybody I know
8. She’s hysterical
9. She understands my weirdness
10. We’re best friends
11. We’re best friends in love
12. I really feel like it was love at first sight
13. She’s the only girl I’ve ever been completely in love with
14. I’ve never thought about the future so much as I have with her
15. I haven’t wanted anyone more in my life
16. She makes me try
17. She makes me feel good about myself
18. She’s sweet
19. She’s intelligent
20. She’s clever
21. She loves animals
22. She listens to good music
23. She likes the music that I play
24. She likes my singing
25. I love her singing
26. I love the music she listens too
27. We both love The Notebook
28. She loves the scy-fy channel
29. She’s my motivation
30. How committed she is
31. How much she loves me
32. How much I love her
33. How hard she tries every single day
34. Her determination
35. Her forgiveness
36. Her smile
37. The way her eyes are 5 different colors in the sunlight
38. The way she holds my hand
39. The feeling of her when she’s near me
40. The way her body language tells me things she wouldn’t ever admit
41. Her energy is intoxicating
42. We can call each other names
43. She so playful
44. Her energy towards the things she loves
45. The way she stares at me
46. The way she giggles
47. The way she smells
48. How I can’t take my eyes off of her
49. How she’s completely captured my heart
50. The way everything is more vivid and natural with her
51. How easy it was to fall for her
52. How natural everything is
53. Her skin
54. Her hair
55. Her freckles
56. She loves that I’m cheesy
57. That I can vent to her, and she’s strong for me
58. That she can vent to me, and I’m strong for her
59. The fact that every single day I’m alive, I fall in love with her just a little bit more
60. She’s going to be strong
61. She’ll always be here for me
62. I’ll always be there for her
63. The way she handles herself
64. She’s selfless
65. She’s hardheaded
66. How she can laugh with me
67. How she makes me laugh
68. The things that she’s taught me
69. The things I’ve taught her
70. The memories we shared, and the memories we’ll make
71. She loves that I’m clingy
72. I make her feel wanted
73. I love that she shows me, and doesn’t scold me
74. Her patience
75. Her understanding
76. The way she reasons with me, and doesn’t fight me
77. We don’t fight
78. We’re not dysfunctional
79. I can’t stay mad at her
80. Not a million fights would make me leave
81. No force on heaven or Earth will get me to leave this town
82. We can be mushy and faggoty together
83. When we cuddle, the way our legs wrap up inside of Each others
84. When we hug the way she is nuzzled
85. She loves my body heat
86. She loves Motorhead
87. She loves to wrestle and rough house
88. She always tries
89. She loves coffee
90. That she was my prom date
91. That she has opened up so many doors for me
92. That she’s promised she’ll stay
93. That I’ve promised the same
94. She’s the only girl for my eyes
95. The way my adrenaline runs when I see her
96. How my heart pounds at the thought of Marriage/Kids/Living together
97. The knowledge I get to grow up with her
98. That I’m completely in love
99. That I’ll always love her
100. She’s mine. 

I hate that this had to be the wakeup call, but this is the way it had to be.
You couldn’t have thought of years of pouring wine in your face wouldn’t come back and bite you in the ass? Now you’re in the hospital.
God fucking damn it.
I’m so worried. 

• Am gonna be forever
• Am gonna last
• Am not gonna be ex
• Will work myself to death to stay
• Will walk through the fire to be with you
• Will not let anything come between us
• Will not love anyone like I love you
• Will only love you
• Will always hold you in the highest regard
• Will obliterate any asshole who hurts you
• Will include myself
• Will put you first
• Will take care of us
• Will watch us get old
• Will never let us grow up
• Will
• Want you

I’ll still always be here in love with you.

No matter how I react
I will still be in love with you.

We can grow and heal together.
And we’ll overcome the toughest odds.

Courtney
Fallout
Coffee
Motörhead

No one else.

You can take off your helmets

Your eyes are wincing from the flash

Your heart is racing from the shockwave

You watch as it rises into the sky

And wonder what new hell this is

You wonder why god has given this to you

This terrible gift

One that has changed your life

but one that will also protect you with it’s own

The blast is over

Now the fallout is coming.

Makes me think of when I was in St. Louis. And it makes me melancholy/Sad. I fucking hate it there. I mean yeah, snow’s cool. Living in a hotel for a while, cool stuff.

Dealing with Anxiety and depression. Not cool.

Having suicidal thoughts. Not cool.

Missing my friends who were hundreds of miles away. Not cool.

But that makes me think

Had I said no, instead of yes, would I have met Courtney?

Just that one choice. Saying yes instead of no. Makes me glad in the end that I went.

I believe it was the right path towards meeting her. The Universe is funny about that. Changing your life had you done one little thing the opposite way.

Meeting her has opened my eyes to a lot of things. It’s made me understand. It’s made me grow up. She tells me that I’ve helped her a lot. But she’s helped me more than she could ever understand.

Yeah we’re gonna have to deal with shit. But I know we can do it. I’ll bust my ass as hard as I can for it to work.

I’m crying as I type this. I love her so much. I’d do anything for her.

I’m sure some of you either will or won’t read this, and you’re like “Oh it’s only been such a short time.” It doesn’t matter. It’s not about the time it develops in, it’s how it develops in the time.

I would give my all for her tomorrow if she needed me too. I don’t care what repercussions came to me. I’d do anything for her.

Courtney Marie Strickland. I love you.

I do.

Come what may, I don’t ever wanna lose you. I’ll never give you a reason too. I care about you so much. I wanna experience what it’s like to be in love. For a very long time.

thank you. For being here for me. For being you. For being lovely. For being beautiful. For letting me in. For trusting me. For fixing me. For taking me as I was, and asking for nothing else. Knowing how fucking weird and emotional I am sometimes, and loving me more than anything.

Love is lovely.

I loved tonight.

So much.

This spring break isn’t all that bad.

And when me and my wife have jobs
I wanna plan one day out of the year where we both call in sick
Stay home
And fuck each others brains out all day.

I love my relationship
I love my girlfriend
I love what we have
It makes me so happy
Everyday I look forward to getting up and seeing her
And when we’re apart shes all I think of.
I just. I love it.

• Every Second
• Every Minute
• Every Hour
• Every Day
• Every Month
• Every Year
• Every Decade
• For life

It may not be immediate, My help may not come right away. But god fucking damn it when I start. I will never stop.

I will always be there.

I love you.